Hello, this is me... as organic as I come. stripped bear, makeup free at my most comfortable. My name is Angela Clark and this is my blog.
I am a mother of 3 children, 2 girls and one boy. I am married to the most beautiful, gentle, sweetest most loving man named Mitchell. We have been together since we were teenagers and married for 13 years. I was born and breed in a rural area in country NSW and now reside in the beautiful sea side community of Kiama on the South Coast of NSW.
My life is amazing. I am very blessed. I have a loving close family relationship, wonderful friends, good health and really nothing but low quality problems to complain about!
This is not to say that I haven't had my share of challenges in the past, but that's all part of my story which I don't let define me. I am however on a crusade to make sure that moving forward my life is a happy ever after story and this blog is a tool to help capture the essence of life's experiences both good and bad and a way for me to keep checking in with myself to ensure I am on the right path. This is my inner most self exposed, laid out as bare and raw as possible because I value authenticity and honesty and I think its a travesty in this world that we cant all be more honest especially with ourselves.
It pains me to think that we just go through life in a matter of fact kind of way, going through the motions, just letting life happen. I made a conscious decision last year that I was not going to live life like this anymore. Its way to precious of an experience to waste in worry and fear and anxiety. I made a decision that this year would be the best year of me. A year that I would finally start letting go of some of the old beliefs that don't serve me anymore. To love more fully, live more fully and know myself more intimately than ever before and believe me I am a complicated specimen so you are in for a ride! Have you ever asked yourself what do you want out of life?, what are you here for? what is your purpose? and what do you want tomorrow to look like? These are fairly profound considerations I know, but at the heart of it they are the unsolved mysteries of life are they not? Why are we doing this? I got to a point last year where I couldn't honestly answer any of these questions not even close. I had become so consumed by my problems, living in my own head and my own fears that I couldn't even honestly say what it is I wanted out of life. I couldn't language any of the confusion or distress or hopelessness I felt, I just couldn't seem to move forward I was stuck. A prisoner of my own disillusion. Don't get me wrong I certainly wasn't about to end it all, I had the most amazing support and love from those around me, and there was still plenty to smile about and get out of bed for in the morning but it was just a sense of discontentment that I couldn't seem to shake. I knew something had to change and that something had to start with me. I needed to spend sometime with the real me again. Eliminate all the doubt and voices that clouded my head and stole my peace. I needed to check in with Ange again and really connect with the dreams and desires I held on to which had never been given a voice. I knew there was an inner longing to explore new areas and indulge in things I felt passionate about but life just kept sweeping me up in the current and I never seemed to be able to make it to dry land. Head always just above the water frantically kicking to save myself but from what? there was no real threat, it was all just a belief that I wasn't good enough, not smart enough, not capable enough. Fear held me back for way to long. So I bravely I decided to close down my business as a health education consultant (Diabetes specific) and start studying to be a life coach. While I am not convinced yet that I am going to pursue this as a career, I am keeping my options open and more so I am enjoying the learning and the personal development I am getting out of the content I am studying.
So on the other side today I still have some fear, I wouldn't be human if I didn't admit to being a little scared at times especially now that I don't have a source of income and I have responsibilities that I need to take care of, however the difference now is that I sit in the fear and embrace it and use it to move me to a place of empowerment and a place where I can resourcefully solve my problems with creativity and even a little light humour at times. I can honestly say that for the first time in a long time I feel like nothing can stop me. This blog will be the story of my life as it unfolds, who knows how long that will be and what shape that will take however I am of the belief that everything happens for a reason and I find myself on this journey for as long as I need to be and that is all. It is my hope that some of what inspires me might also inspire others to live their extraordinary lives, in whatever way that evolves for them. I hope that this blog can create a conversation because life long learning is one of the keys to living on purpose with growth and contribution the ultimate goals of self actualisation and happiness.
Please join me and follow this process and I hope that you might find ways to bring about the changes you want to see in your world.
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